Over Troubled Water
No matter what trouble life brings, there is joy, like a well-spring, deep within my soul, that is Jesus living in me, by the power of the Holy Spirit. He guides me over the troubled water of sorrow, pain, and turmoil and keeps me secure in God’s love. There is no joy like the joy of knowing, Jesus.
I have been through some tough times in my life, everyone has. I don’t know anyone who hasn’t known suffering. I have known a few who numb themselves to it and deny it but I know that no matter how tough they portray themselves to be, they also carry some hidden pain. Others share their sorrows openly and neither way is more noble than the other. People are just different; but because we live in a world ruled by death, the trouble death causes, is a common denominator among us all. Some of us drown in sorrow, being overcome by constant turmoil and pain. Some try to cope through alcohol, drugs, and acquiring material wealth only, to succumb to the inherent evil of those worldly coping methods. Before I knew, Jesus I too tried many different means of coping with the pain, agony, and sorrow in my life. They only amplified my pain and left me, hopeless. When nothing worked and I reached the end of my way of doing things, God intervened in my life and by His Holy Spirit, He revealed, Jesus to me. By faith, I received, Jesus into my mind and heart and God, now my Heavenly Father, began to reveal, Jesus in me also, by the power of His Holy Spirit. Jesus has dwelt within me, ever-since and I experience Him as a constant, inner joy that never leaves me, no matter what trouble comes my way, or any foolish way I respond to the pain of life.
I am not an especially, holy woman, though I would like to be. I long for that gentle and quiet spirit that should adorn women who love God. However, I’m rather feisty and tend to think that I can take the world on, all by myself. I am a fighter. I am fiery and I respond to life too quickly, with emotion. I don’t take things lying down; I know when I’m right, and when I’m right, I’m right! I can be difficult to live with, I think. I allow very few people to get close enough to me to do me harm and I fiercely protect those who I have allowed into my life. This is the, Pam formed by what the world used in an attempt to destroy me and in my flesh, I am the person that the suffering of my life taught me to be. I am a survivor. However, this isn’t the woman God intended for me to become, even though, He loves me just as I am. He had mercy on me, a sinful woman adapted to a sinful world, and by His Holy Spirit began to reveal, Jesus in me and remake me, according to His image. As I grow into Christ, the woman who survived the world by becoming like the world, is slowly fading away. I am becoming more like, Jesus and I am becoming the woman I would have been if I had never been born into a fallen world, ruled by Satan, through death, because of sin. When Jesus began to live in me and be revealed in me, I received, eternal life and joy and it is like a well-spring of living water, that product of eternal life, deep within my soul, that counteracts death; and continues to produce new, spiritual life in me. No matter what sadness, sorrow, pain, or madness tries to destroy me, Jesus restores me with eternal joy that comes only from knowing Him. In Him, I enter God’s rest and my struggles melt away. I have no need to fight and I am no longer a survivor but an overcomer, as Jesus walks me over the troubled water of life even, beneath the shadow of death. In my spirit, I have become that woman of God adorned by a quiet, gentle spirit because I have been reborn and retrained, directly by the Living God, who I now know as, Daddy.
I’m not perfect but Jesus is and because God is merciful, I am being perfected by God and one day, I will wake up and be just like, Jesus. As a caterpillar enters its cocoon to become something much greater and more beautiful than anyone would ever think a fuzzy, worm could be, I too, am being remade in, Jesus. I am being made fit for His Kingdom that is now, spiritual and later, will become visible. The same Kingdom God promised His people so long ago. I will no longer be a sinner but instead, a righteous servant of God. I will be His obedient child, a true son of God, adopted through Christ Jesus. The joy that is Jesus living in me, that well-spring of living water that is eternal life, is beginning to bubble over and will flow freely to all, when Jesus comes again and through His righteous judgment, establishes His Kingdom. By His righteous rule, all things will be returned to God and the eternal state. Death, pain, and sorrow destroyed by the bright, joy of His Return! Come quickly, Lord Jesus!