My life before Jesus was a life of pain, confusion, and personal destruction. Through faith in Jesus, I entered a spiritual, personal relationship with God and discovered a new way to live.
I love spring! It’s wonderful, after a long, grey winter, to feel the gentle warmth of the sun and see the first signs of new life. Often, it seems to me that winter will never end but spring reminds me that death in winter is only, a part of the cycle of life and life is much more powerful than death. Spring reminds me of the new life Jesus has given me. Before I believed in Jesus, or understood who He is, and what that means for me, I belonged to death. Death frightened me and I understood it to be the ultimate end of all things. The only life I experienced was painful and confusing, with a few moments of pleasure here and there. Because I was afraid of death and suffered because of the pain it governed me by, I gave my life over to death. No little girl dreams of growing up and becoming a drug addict but the forces that shaped me and the choices I made in response to those forces, led me directly, to that destination. Every day, I ingested a little death, in the form of drugs, to cope with the emotional pain, that enabled death to rule my life. I was caught up in a cycle of death that left me with no hope for my future. Even though death was crushing me, I longed for death to swallow me whole. I was a child of winter and I didn’t believe that spring would ever come. Continue reading











